The main goal of this study was to explore the post recovery lived experiences of former users. It can be said that these experiences were manifested in four main themes, namely detour, gateway, metamorphosis, and leadership. Following these themes, concepts were identified from participants’ post recovery experiences. If these findings are compared to those of other research, a general summery can be acquired. Below, each theme is discussed in detail.
5.1. Theme 1 Detour
The participants of the study reported that they had exited slowly from the main path of life at a certain point and entered the new phase of life without tangible changes, and this was similar to a downward spiral. Passing through this phase was slow for some individuals and faster for others. Because this detour caused a big gap between the individual and their normal daily living, all of them perceived that time and energy would be needed to come back to the main path of life and consequently to live a normal life like others around them were doing. This detour was considered an abnormal path leads to a point referred to as “the end of line.” Some of the participants’ comments relating to this theme are as follows:
I had just been released from jail, and I thought of suicide very much. I mean, when I abused substances, I cried and walked aimlessly in streets. I noticed that other people stared at me, but the world was meaningless for me. I remember that this was my state during the last two or three nights (Participant 9).
I was a university student when my addiction became acute. I had an exam and had not abused substances. We went there and the prof had said that he would come at 5 pm. I left there and came back to find drugs. I went to a distant place and searched for the person who provided me with substances. I’ll never forget it; I was standing there shivering, and I was also depressed. Then, I cursed myself and asked: “What are you doing here? Who has brought you here? You should be at the university.” (Participant 6).
“Detour” consisted of the following concepts: abuse experience, the end of the line, the price of abuse, useless measures, physical crises of the abuse period, social crises of the abuse period, familial crises of the abuse period, economic crises of the abuse period, work crises of the abuse period, the individual’s internal crises, response to the last call of abuse, and the last farewell. Below, examples of the method of formation of this theme from sub concepts and its comparison with previous studies are provided.
5.1.1. The End of the Line
Most participants stated that at the end of their drug abuse, they hated addiction for any other reason and had reached a dead end in their lives. They reached a point that was the so-called “end of the line.” One participant reported the following:
I began to cry and said: “Oh my God, please kill me.” It was the first time that I said it. I went and performed ablution and said some prayers. I said two parts of my prayers and pleaded: “Oh God, either kill me or save me.” (Participant 1).
5.2. Theme 2 Gateway
The participants stated that after years of efforts to recover and failure for many reasons, they formed a new belief that abstaining from drug use was no longer possible anymore. They had heard many times that they could recover if they wanted to badly enough, but their greatest efforts had not succeeded: It was in 1991 that I decided to quit, so I went to the doctor. Many times I stopped using, but I was not able to sustain my abstinence, so that it took 14 years to quit for good” (Participant 1).
What became clear in this study was that to reach the point of freedom, certain instruments, tools, and information are required that these individuals were lacking. Thus, their efforts reached a dead end at some point and their cravings captured their attention, driving them to re-abuse: “I stopped many times; that part was not difficult for me. Yet the temptation prevented me from abstaining” (Participant 10).
As mentioned above, the main concept of gateway consisted of several categories, including the following: entrance into withdrawal, friends’ attention, the safe coast, feelings of similarity, abandonment, test of motivation, spiritual status at the beginning of recovery, temptation, unstable happiness, detoxification, disparity in pains, purity, chains on the wings of flight, and simple pain control skills. Below, examples are given of how this theme was formed from categories and comparison with other studies.
5.2.1. Entrance Into Abstinence
In the present study, each of the participants expressed different experiences related the phase of entrance into recovery; some considered it a miracle, while most considered adherence to the right path and entrance into recovery as guidance from God. Some attributed their recovery to observing the success of their friends. However, others had decided beforehand to enter the recovery program and entered it after some enquiry. One participant commented, “It seemed that it was from God’s side that everything was ready for me to quit, like the clouds and temperature that are prerequisites for rain. I was ready to ask God for help” (Participant 1).
5.2.2. Emergence of a New Belief
Most participants stated that at the time of their last recovery, they had found a new belief that had caused them to follow the path to recovery with confidence. Belief refers to the individual’s attitude towards the final result of any undertaking and the value attached to this eventuality. Information is changed into attitudes when it leads to an individual’s satisfaction with self the or when it increases self-confidence and improves one’s attitudes and helps one to maintain oneself as an able person.
5.3. Theme 3 Metamorphosis
The participants stated that they had no accurate information about their problem and its solution before they stopped using drugs for the last time. They had obtained their knowledge in this regard from individuals whose information was incomplete and inaccurate. One of the elements of their success in their last recovery attempt was acquiring appropriate, accurate information from individuals who had experienced substance abuse problems in their lives and felt its effect:
I was much less disappointed this time, as there was always a source of available help. I was hopeful that if I was well, I could speak somewhere. At first, I did not speak at NA, but as I gradually began to speak, I experienced better days. My fears had gone, and this allowed me to speak more; as a result, I was gifted with a better day (Participant 7).
The term “metamorphosis” was assigned to this part of the results. The theme consisted of the following concepts: gradual improvement of physical status, mental awareness, gift of recovery, supporting hands, transmission of experience, and awakening of conscience. The examples below show how this theme was formed from the categories and comparison with previous studies.
5.3.1. Mental Awakening
Most participants stated that a layer of dust was gradually cleared from their minds; a kind of mental and intellectual therapy occurred, and reality gradually became clearer. They said that the blurred vision of their minds had gone away and their memories had improved. No study was found in this regard, so this study represents the only research to address this theme. One participant stated:
I looked and asked why has the color of the curtain changed? My sister’s husband was there and said: “It is the same as it was before you went.” I asked: “You mean it’s the same color as before?” I lived in that house for three years, but I had not noticed the color of the curtain.” (Participant 5).
5.3.2. The Gift of Abstinence
This theme is not consistent with other studies. Sharq et al. (
19) referred to a group of factors that cause relapse, including personal, familial, social, cultural, and economic factors; they stated that individuals relapse when they fail to grow in these areas. In the study by Mirzaei et al. (
6), psychological factors are mentioned as the most important causes of relapse, and other factors were also considered significant in the return to addiction. One participant made the following comments: “I specifically enjoy a good feeling in some parts of my affairs. Apart from the salary I receive at the end of month, when I think that I’m useful, I get a pleasing feeling. I feel satisfied” (Participant 8).
5.4. Theme 4 Leadership
The fourth theme to emerge was “leadership,” consisting of the price of recovery, contribution, secrets of flight, and rethinking. One participant noted:
The mental challenges are endless, yet, there are certain tools that can be obtained by entering this program. We learn them and they help us not to return to addiction. Our disorder is such that we can arrest it, but we cannot treat it completely.” (Participant 5).
This theme was formed from the sub concepts and comparison to other studies as illustrated below.
5.4.1. Secrets of Flight
Most of the participants enumerated many factors as the causes of their success in recovery, including help from family, the availability of NA and classes, undertaking the 12 steps, using the experience of other addicts, acquiring communicative skills, gaining power, the ability to say “no” to substances, and so on. Other studies have indicated failure in the mentioned items as the cause of a return to substance abuse, as mentioned above. Dickens et al. mentioned the processes that are required for recovery but are not available (
20). The themes obtained from the description of the structure in this study were as follows: self-communication; communication with others; motivation; and the past, present, and future temporal structure. The themes were obtained by integration of structure and nature were as follows: spirituality, the end of the line, wandering, the ends, comparison of the present to the past, the progress of evolution, and inter-personal communications. This study suggests that an understanding of drug users’ needs in the first phase of recovery requires support, including employment, meeting educational and occupational needs, familial support, and support groups in recovery. In the qualitative study by Taylor (
21), the results showed useful findings in individuals who applied correct nutrition, sufficient exercise, and spirituality in their recovery process.
5.5. Conclusion
According to the findings of this study, the following factors were the most important elements in addicts’ success when it came to remaining in the recovery program: having a society (NA), a feeling of equality, a sense of responsibility, no blame, giving love, feelings of sympathy, having the same story, observation of others’ success in recovery, and contribution of the NA members. Of course, other factors, such as group meetings, encouragement of newcomers, and activity in the NA meetings, greatly affected the success of the recovery program. In addition, promoting the spiritual beliefs of the individuals enhanced their success positively. As a whole, the mentioned items can be considered the success factors of NA, demonstrating how this therapeutic modality promotes recovery among former addicts.