4.1. Demographic Information
Nine family caregivers, including 3 men and 6 women, participated in this study, all of whom were providing care for hemodialysis patients at the end of life. The participants had an average age of 59.44 years and had been caring for their patients for an average of 6.33 years.
Table 2 provides detailed demographic information for the participants.
| N | Age (y) | Gender | Duration of Care (y) | Relationship | Occupation | Education | Marital Status | Duration of Interview (min) |
|---|
| P1 | 45 | Female | 7 | Daughter | Housewife | Under diploma | Widowed | 45 |
| P2 | 55 | Female | 7 | Spouse | Housewife | Under diploma | Married | 40 |
| P3 | 62 | Female | 7 | Spouse | Housewife | Under diploma | Married | 45 |
| P4 | 64 | Male | 5 | Son | Driver | Diploma | Married | 35 |
| P5 | 73 | Male | 4 | Spouse | Retired | Illiterate | Married | 40 |
| P6 | 53 | Female | 3 | Daughter | Housewife | Under diploma | Married | 45 |
| P7 | 47 | Female | 6 | Daughter | Unemployed | Diploma | Widowed | 35 |
| P8 | 83 | Male | 12 | Spouse | Retired | Diploma | Married | 40 |
| P9 | 53 | Female | 6 | Daughter | Housewife | Diploma | Married | 45 |
Four main themes and twelve sub-themes emerged. These themes encompassed: (1) complex care; (2) care as an opportunity for skill development; (3) care as a chain of caregivers; and (4) moments of misfortune. The main themes and sub-themes are described in
Table 3.
| Main Themes | Sub-themes |
|---|
| Complex care | Individual-social struggles |
| Healthcare hurdles |
| Care as an opportunity for skill development | Experience of spirituality |
| Development of mental capacity |
| Care as a chain of caregivers | Ignorance of the caregiver |
| Lifestyle adjustments |
| Persistent concerns |
| Questioning circumstances |
| Mental strain due to prolonged care |
| Moments of misfortune | Emotional exhaustion from witnessing patient's physical deterioration |
| Sense of helplessness regarding patient's mental and cognitive state |
| Psychological burden due to lack of societal and institutional support |
4.2. Complex Care
In this study, the first main theme that emerged from family caregivers' experiences was complex care. This theme comprised two sub-themes: Individual-social struggles and healthcare hurdles.
Participants reported that due to the progression of the disease and the urgent need for hemodialysis treatment for their loved ones, they encountered several difficulties in fulfilling their familial roles and responsibilities. Consequently, they found themselves undergoing significant adjustments in balancing both their familial and professional roles and responsibilities. Economic concerns, such as medication expenses, transportation costs, potential job loss, and other financial burdens, were additional sources of stress, contributing to a heightened sense of insecurity. Other difficulties included limitations across various dimensions of life, such as inadequate convenience, disrupted eating habits, challenges with activities of daily living, disrupted sleep patterns, difficulties with traveling, and disruptions in other daily activities. Additionally, participants faced issues related to shaldon and fistula catheters, including problems like improper functioning or infection. Moreover, their patients experienced general post-dialysis symptoms such as weakness, fatigue, mobility problems, dizziness, weight loss, and muscle cramps.
Participant No. 4 said: "We don't take him on trips at all because we have to come here every other day. My wife and kids are up north right now, but I couldn't go with them. I'm here with my father and can't leave him."
Participant No. 6 said: "It's been 2 - 3 weeks since her last dialysis session, and it's really bothering her. She keeps saying, 'I don't want to undergo dialysis. I feel terrible.' During the sessions, she always experiences a sudden drop in blood pressure, a sharp decrease in blood sugar, and high levels of stress. She often feels awful."
Participant No. 7 said: "The main issue with my spouse is taking her to the dialysis center. Some days, I can't find the car because everyone has left to take the kids to school. That's why we end up being late. The commuting really takes a toll on her."
Participant No. 9 said: "Since we started dialysis, she's had a shaldon catheter put in her legs four times, but it kept moving. Then, it was placed in her chest twice, and now we've had to put in a new one. Each time, she had to be admitted to the hospital. We have to make sure she doesn't get infected because it can cause severe symptoms like fevers and chills. When my mom shows these symptoms, it means there's an infection, so we need to be really cautious."
Participant No. 4 said: "I used to work as a truck driver in Europe, but I had to hand over the truck to someone else because my father got sick. Now I'm here dealing with a lot of pressure."
4.3. Care as an Opportunity for Skill Development
In this study, the second main theme that emerged from family caregivers' experiences was care as an opportunity for skill development. This theme comprised two sub-themes: Experience of spirituality and development of mental capacity.
Most participants believed that despite initially experiencing discomfort, despair, and a sense of crisis or shock following the dialysis of a family member, they underwent personal growth or development. This enabled them to face the difficulties more effectively and continue supporting their patients on this journey. It seems that, after facing these difficulties and accepting the circumstances, participants found a new meaning in life, viewing life and its challenges through a different lens. Additionally, they reported increased levels of patience and resilience, finding solace in difficulties, and experiencing heightened compassion, happiness, and joy from being with their patients. These experiences indicate growth and development in their psychological well-being.
Participant No. 1 said: "Caring for my mom has been a transformative experience for me. I've noticed significant personal growth and development since I began. It's had a positive impact on all areas of my life, and I see it as a true blessing."
Participant No. 4 said: "My brother called yesterday from the United States. He said that over there, if someone can't do a task themselves, they just call for help, pay for the service, and someone comes to do the work. But I find it hard to accept the idea of paying someone to take care of my father. It's easy to say, but deep down, I struggle with it."
Participant No. 5 said: "When she acts out, it bothers and upsets me, but I try not to take it to heart. I believe there's a reward for doing the right thing, and I know God sees everything. I say to God, 'I'll help her, please help me too.'"
Participant No. 8 said: "When she acts out, it bothers and upsets me, but I try not to take it to heart. I believe there's a reward for doing the right thing, and I know God sees everything. I pray to God, 'I'll help her, please help me too.'"
Participant No. 9 said: "I'm thankful she's not completely bedridden. I'm satisfied with the current situation and grateful it hasn't gotten worse. I make sure not to say anything that might embarrass her. My only prayer is that things don't get any worse than they are now."
4.4. Care as a Chain of Caregivers
In this study, the third main theme that emerged from family caregivers' experiences was care as a chain of caregivers. This theme comprised five sub-themes: Ignorance of the caregiver, lifestyle adjustments, persistent concerns, questioning circumstances, and mental strain due to prolonged care.
Participants noted that caregivers of hemodialysis patients undergo greater self-sacrifice and make more sacrifices in their lives compared to caregivers of other chronic patients. This is attributed to the constant dependency and the need for comprehensive care and follow-up required by hemodialysis patients. As a result, caregivers dedicate a substantial portion of their lives to the care of these patients. However, this dedication comes at a cost, as caregivers often face mental, psychological, and physical difficulties, often ignoring their own well-being. In many cases, they are compelled to endure difficulties in their professional and academic pursuits, missing out on career and marriage opportunities, thus becoming victims of the caregiving role.
Participant No. 2 said: "I'm thankful she's not completely bedridden. I'm content with the current situation and grateful it hasn't gotten worse. I make sure not to say anything that might embarrass her. My only prayer is that things don't get any worse than they are now."
Participant No. 4 said: "Even though my home is in Tehran, I spend most of my time here. The commute and constant traffic are frustrating, and they often leave me feeling annoyed, both at work and in life."
Participant No. 5 said: "I recently experienced amnesia. The doctors advised me not to go to the dialysis center because it could negatively affect my mood. They suggested that the children should go instead."
Participant No. 6 said: "Many people in my mother's age group are healthy; they walk, they farm. But my mother's situation is different. She was so anxious, and that's what led to this. Otherwise, she's smarter than all of them."
Participant No. 7 said: "Most of the time, my mother's blood sugar drops, so she needs someone with her. Whenever I step out for 20-25 minutes, I get stressed about her well-being. I'm always worried about whether her blood sugar has dropped or not because she often feels sick."
4.5. Moments of Misfortune
In this study, the last main theme that emerged from family caregivers' experiences was moments of misfortune. This theme comprised three sub-themes: Emotional exhaustion from witnessing a patient's physical deterioration, a sense of helplessness regarding the patient's mental and cognitive state, and a psychological burden due to a lack of societal and institutional support.
In most interviews, participants expressed profound sadness whenever their patients required a needle for hemodialysis, experienced discomfort during and after the procedure, or had to adhere to a special diet. Some also mentioned feeling embarrassed by their patients' misbehavior and aggression towards the hemodialysis personnel or their repeated questions to the nurses, which left them feeling upset and sad. Furthermore, many of their concerns stemmed from the lack of attention or support from authorities regarding issues such as high medication expenses, transportation costs, inadequate mental health counseling, and insufficient training on care or transplantation. These unaddressed issues led to their complaints and mental stress.
Participant No. 3 said: "No one lends a hand with this at all. The kids have all gotten hitched and moved out. I'm grappling with financial woes, and despite reaching out for aid from various avenues, including the State Welfare Organization, I haven't received any assistance."
Participant No. 4 said: "At times, he's distracted, and at times, he's alright. When I escort him to the bathroom, he keeps asking about the time, which can be bothersome, but he's my father, so I have no choice. Also, when we're at the center and he spots the nurses, he keeps addressing them repeatedly, which embarrasses me. I gently remind him, 'what are you doing?' But then again, he has Alzheimer's."
Participant No. 6 said: "We're part of the Kidney Patients Association, but I'm not sure why no one has brought up the option of a transplant with us. It could be because of her fluctuating blood sugar and blood pressure, but I'm not entirely certain."
Participant No. 9 said: "Back then, she'd just pop over to my place whenever she pleased. She'd give me a ring, asking, 'are you home?' Then, she'd swing by and crash for a night or two, or she'd head to my sister's place. But now, she needs assistance to get around. Her body is really weakened, and she can't walk anymore. What more can we do?"