A total of 45 stories of patients with COVID-19 were analyzed in the study. After screening the stories, four general themes and 11 sub-themes were extracted (
Table 1).
| Themes | Subtheme | Codes |
|---|
| Freedom | Calmness | Calm |
| Faith |
| Rescue | Hopefulness |
| Different lifestyle | Change | Change in parenting |
| Change in attitude |
| Unfriended | Quarantine |
| Loneliness |
| Sleeplessness | Sleepless |
| Night terrors |
| Horror | Denial | Refusal |
| Unbelievable |
| Not experienced experience | Shocked |
| Horrifying situation |
| Toward death | Suffocation |
| Dying notion |
| Fear |
| Stigma | Embarrassment | Shame |
| Secrecy |
| Defame | Signed |
| Hopelessness | Incurable |
Themes include stigma (the sub-themes of embarrassment, defame, and hopelessness), horror (the sub-themes of denial, not experienced experience, and toward death), different lifestyles (the sub-themes of change, unfriended, and sleeplessness), and freedom (two sub-themes of calmness and rescue).
Horror theme was one of the main themes, and the study participants had a severe fear due to their illness and described it as not experiencing experience and thinking about death.
“I have never experienced anything like it ...”.
They expressed their fear of dying. One told (story number 5), “ …I was thinking that might be my last time where I can write something in my life,” and another told (story number 9), “I thought I was dying Wednesday last week when I couldn’t take a breath and was losing consciousness.”
Another important theme was a different lifestyle, which included three sub-themes: change, unfriended, and sleeplessness. The participants often regarded the illness as a change in their lives and roles and considered the disease unfriended.
In this regard, one participant (story number 4) said, “The big one is preparing for her bac (end of secondary school exam), and I see her cry when she can’t manage, and I can’t hold her in my arms, console her, help her.”
“I think the biggest change for me is that my way of looking at things is different now.”
A group of participants (stories number 8, 11, 16, 32, 41, 42) reported this disease and the unpleasant experience of sleeplessness. “I could not sleep at all,” or “The hardest part was the nights, alone with his fears.”
Another central theme extracted from this study was a stigma. Participants were anxious about their disease and sometimes lost hope.
Story number 10: “…I have seen a negative stigma for those who admit to being positive. But this sickness doesn’t discriminate, many people are afraid of testing. Some also don’t exhibit the common symptoms and assume they have something else.” Or story number 12: “My moral is rock bottom. I can’t stop crying….”
They blamed themselves for possible transmission of infection or received a threat from others.
Story number 5: "How many people did I infect? Did I infect somebody? Will I cause somebody to die?"
Story number 7: “People started calling my family the Corona family, and I even got an anonymous call saying that they would come to the hospital to kill me.”
Another patient said: “Other people told me that there was a group planning to stone me to death at the beach.”
Another central theme was freedom; the participants said they were lucky and felt calm after recovering from the disease.
story number 3: “I feel calm about everything, really calm… I went to the gate of hell and came back. I saw with my eyes that others failed to recover and died, which has greatly impacted me.”
Story number 1: “I feel fortunate that I didn’t die or infect anyone else,” or "I was fighting for every single breath; I was fighting for mine and my baby’s life.”