This study aimed to explain the experiences of young girls with psoriasis. The age of the participants ranged from 18 to 34 years and their mean age was 26.8 years.
After analyzing the interview data, the main themes of the study were formulated according to Colaizzi’s method as follows: challenging emergence of disease, a tireless quest for futile treatments, social stigma as a gift from the community to patients, and fear of uncertain future (
Table 1).
| Main Themes | Cluster of Themes | Meanings |
|---|
| The challenging emergence of disease | The role of stress in exacerbating lesions. The mysterious and vague emergence of disease. The onset of disease with red and inflamed skin spots. Fear of incidence of psoriasis during adolescence | Stress and anxiety exacerbated the symptoms. I had a problem in the last couple of months that put me under a lot of stress and after about three days, I saw these damn spots growing and spreading to the extent that my hands and feet were heavily involved. At the onset of the disease, white spots started to appear on my arm until most areas of my body were affected. For me, it especially spread to my nails. The nails changed color first. Then, they got scaly and their front end was in danger of falling off. I didn’t think the disease would gradually develop all over my body. |
| Fear of uncertain future | Problems with marriage. Hereditary nature of the disease. Psoriasis as a compulsory coexistence for the whole lifetime | But the worry I always had was the fear of the future ... For example, if I had a chance to get married, how could I discuss this with my partner? What would he think of me? How would his family handle it at all? ... Worst of all, I was worried about the hereditary nature of the illness. I had to cope with this disease for I’ve had it for several years ... I was not going to get rid of it! |
| Indefatigability in the pursuit of futile treatments | The inefficiency of medical treatment. The inevitability of continuing treatment | I went to the same doctor a few years ago. I was visiting him every month. Until I noticed that the results weren’t as I expected. The symptoms didn’t get any better, so I went to another doctor who almost gave me the same ointments and medications. I was fed up with that up-in-the-air condition! I took the medication for years, but it didn't work out, whereas leaving the treatment unfinished could make it worse! |
| Social stigma as a gift from the community to patients | Frustration. Fear of teasing. Negative reactions of the community to patients | I would wear a scarf at the height of the disease because the scales became so obvious. I hid the affected areas in my forehead as the plaques were visible on the scarf or dress, so I always had my hand on my scarf. I would tell my mom I look like those having head lice with my hands always on my head! It was very sad! When I was out in my classrooms, I wrapped my scarf over my forehead. Only would some of my friends see my skin and ask me a lot of questions. I would spend some time explaining the problem ... I was scared that they make fun of me or call me names! |
4.1. Challenging Emergence of Disease
This category included subcategories such as the mysterious and vague emergence of disease, the role of stress in exacerbating lesions, the onset of disease with red and inflamed skin spots, and fear of the incidence of psoriasis during adolescence.
The incidence of psoriasis can be different and challenging for each patient. From childhood onwards, the disease may usually manifest itself as primary red spots on the limbs, behind the ears, and other open parts of the body such as flexor areas. Patients’ anxiety and stress can cause symptoms to develop further and change. People initially cover them for the fear of being seen, but when they notice that they cannot be kept disguised, their fears reach the highest levels during adolescence. Patients’ mental and practical struggle to fight the disease begins after the emergence of the disease and it is a multi-year process that may cover their whole lifespan. In addition to the individual symptoms of the disease for a certain patient, all members of the family might also be affected by it, as if all family members have psoriasis.
In the following, participant No. 1 talked about the mysterious emergence of the disease and her fear of vague spots:
“...White spots normally start as dots and then slowly and very slowly grow bigger and bigger. When I go to the bathroom or after it, these spots first become red and inflamed and then get scaly and turn silver.
It first appeared on my legs, especially on my knees, then spread to the upper limbs. Later, it started to grow on my hands. I was trying to ignore it for a month until I accidentally noticed that my sides were getting involved too and the spots were increasing. There were many of them! I was very anxious and here I told myself that I’ve got to go to the doctor. I was terrified, it was dead scary” (A 29-year-old single woman majoring in accounting).
Participant No. 4 also commented on the challenging emergence of the disease as follows:
“... At my grandfather’s funeral, my mother noticed that rash-like spots had grown on my head. They were abnormal; the wet rashes covered my head, and I went … to the doctor ... After a while, the legions grew rapidly, and my face got involved, especially the frontal area and eyebrows. I was seriously upset and anxious! I couldn’t do anything and once I cried a lot in front of the doctor. I was scared ...” (A 15-year-old girl, high school student).
Participant No. 6 gave a unique account of the emergence of the disease:
“... At the beginning of this disease, white spots started to appear on my arm until most parts of my body were covered, especially my nails. The nails changed color first, then the skin became flaky, and later there was the risk of falling off the front part of my nail. It played a key role in its beauty. Imagine wherever you show your hands, … the others see them ... I suffered too much stress from this disease. There were fears you could never tell anyone and you had to hide ...” (A 34-year-old girl, single employee).
As for the role of stress in the disease, the same participant also reported:
“Stress and anxiety exacerbated the symptoms. In the last couple of months, I had a lot of stress, and after about three days, I saw these damn spots grow and grow so much that my hands, legs, and feet were heavily engaged ... You know, the origin of these new diseases, like ours, is more mental or psychological. Stress plays an important role in it ...”.
4.2. Indefatigability in the Pursuit of Ineffective Treatments
This category included the following sub-categories: inefficiency of medical treatments and inevitability of continuing treatment.
Appealing to initial solutions as loneliness, waiting for automatic treatment and administration of generic medication cannot change anything in the long run. Over time, the severity of disease reaches a point where it affects the patients’ sleep-wake patterns and eating habits. It may also oblige the patient to refer to a doctor. The rarer is the disease, the more problems it creates for treatment. Symptomatic treatment of the disease by doctors may exacerbate patients’ conditions so that they can no longer be indifferent to the subject. Failure in successful treatment and even disappointment with the patient might lead to the transfer of the patient to more advanced facilities. Despite the existing inadequate treatments for psoriasis, patients continue to hope that they will get rid of the disease someday in the future. A person who develops spots from childhood may look for new treatments to get rid of the disease until the last moment of her/his life. In some cases, it can also be tempting to the patient to try a certain treatment option or to refer to a well-known medical doctor for treatment. Despite the inefficiencies of treatment, unsuccessful experiences, and various problems and limitations that therapies create for the patients, they continue to persist with their quest for adequate remedies.
Participant No. 8 explained that:
“... after treatments and follow-ups in Zahedan, there were no positive outcomes. I already told you that they did not give me the right answer, and this made me and my family even more nervous so that my family suggested I go to Mashhad.
We went to see the doctor. He informed me that I had psoriasis based on the resampling already done ... . Once, one of the doctors prescribed an ointment. These ointments were handmade and very expensive. I used it, but it was no good, hence I told the doctor how ineffective they were! Anyway, the doctor told me that he didn’t know what type of disease it was! It didn’t get better ...” (A 28-year-old single woman).
Participant No. 4 reported on the ineffective medical treatment and inevitability of continuing treatment:
“I got the disease a year ago. The doctor said that it may be psoriasis, which is incurable, and we should just stop the progression ... I cried a lot ... They said the treatment isn’t that effective. I felt thunderstruck for a moment ... After a while, I stopped treatment because the drugs didn’t have much effect on disease eradication and I didn't even want to search for the drug and treatment options anymore as it was useless; the doctors said so. After some time, patches started to regrow and covered my face. I was very upset, anxious, and helpless. Again, I had to go to the doctor and say the symptoms were increasing more and more ... I had no choice but to refer to the doctor as the situation had gotten worse” (A 15-year-old lady, with one year of continuous treatment history).
Participant No. 3 described her condition as follows:
“I went to the same doctor a few years ago. I used to be visited by him every month until I noticed that the outcomes are not the ones expected and symptoms don’t get any better. I changed my doctor who also gave me the same ointments and medications. I was tired of not being able to figure out what to do. Anyway, I took the drug for three years despite its lack of effect ...” (An 18-year-old Sunni resident from the county).
4.3. Social Stigma, a Gift from Community to Patients
This category involves subcategories such as frustrations, fear of teasing, and negative reactions of community members. The participants indicated that some people who did not have enough knowledge of the illness believe that this group of people must have committed a sin; hence, they deserved to be punished by God in this world. In their lifetime, these patients were ridiculed by their classmates, teammates, and almost everyone in their community. They were given different labels that led to failure in their education, as well as marital and professional life. Therefore, patients had a negative feeling about their illness. Sometimes, during their childhood, religious beliefs would create a special impression of the disease as a chastisement for an already-committed sin, or cause fear among children or adolescents. Such misconceptions were later demystified after reading the scientific sources and realizing the nature of the disease. The lower the cultural and educational level of the society, the more impressionable the community by wrong beliefs. Therefore, believing such wrong or right propositions could influence the patients’ lives.
In the following, participant No. 2 comments on the negative reactions by community members:
“When I entered the community, most people, especially my neighbors, started prying. They always told me that your problem is not clear! They would say: nobody knows what her disease is! They mocked me and when I heard this type of idea, I felt too bad. In my daily relations, the neighbors also ridiculed me. This kind of opinion seems easy on the eyes. It can have lots of annoying effects on an individual. As I told you, I got depressed as a result of the disease. I am like all the other sick ones; what’s really wrong with me?! What problems have I created for them?” (A 21-year-old woman with a high school diploma from Zabol, Iran).
The same participant elaborated on her frustrations associated with her illness, as follows:
“Even sometimes, they kicked up a fuss about me that was obviously because of my disease, only to exclude me from their company. For instance, when my friends and I wanted to go to the mosque during Muharram or Ramadan to do our religious services, they would make a feeble excuse to keep me away. As a result, I would go back home since their behavior was terribly annoying”.
Participant No. 4 emphasized the negative reactions of the community along with the frustration it creates:
“I am a girl from a single-child family. Generally, beauty plays a considerable role in girls’ lives. In the school, the students would ask me what those spots on my hands were? They gazed at me and I couldn’t do anything. Even once, our healthcare teacher asked me lots of questions. In the end, she ordered me to come to school with my mother. The next day, she asked my mother about the name of my disease. She was worry of the risk of the disease for the other students! I didn’t eat anything on that day because of her words! As a result, I became too weak and they took me to a clinic to be administered serum. I didn't like to go to school by any means. For the next educational year, I changed my school because I thought other students might look at me differently. It was so unbearable to me; I couldn’t stay there”. (A 19-year-old high school student)
Participant No. 5 described her fear of teasing as quoted below:
“At the height of the disease, I pulled my scarf over my face to hide the spots on my forehead. Because scaly patches peeled off and were clear on my scarf, I always had to keep my hand on my scarf. Once I told my mother, I look like those with lice with such behavior. During the class, I pushed my scarf forward over and over. It was really annoying! Just some of my friends noticed my strange appearance. They would ask me many questions and I would explain my problem to them. I was scared that they may mock me or give me offensive names” (A 20-year-old undergraduate student).
She continued her comments on the fear of teasing by adding that:
“... I had other concerns too. For example, at first, I was terribly frightened that it may be a contagious disease. I was greatly upset about this! I used to tell myself, if any of my friends saw these spots in the self-service of the university, how would she judge me?! ... He would probably inform my other friends”.
Below, participant No. 9 also reports her frustration and fear of teasing:
“Last year, we were invited to my cousin’s wedding party. My mom asked me not to wear my favorite dress I had. Hence, I didn’t want to go to the wedding ceremony, but at last, I was convinced to attend it. However, I got a modest dress because I had some spots on my body which were visible in my newer revealing clothes. I hid the other smaller spots with cream and cosmetics because I didn't want to be embarrassed among my peers. Thank God, no one noticed my problem at the ceremony ...” (An 18-year-old single girl).
4.4. Fear of Uncertain Future
This category covers the following subcategories: marital problems; psoriasis, compulsory lifelong coexistence; hopelessness; youth as the peak time for conflict among attachment, love and secrecy; and the hereditary nature of the disease.
After the incidence of the disease, with frequent referrals to doctors, application of different treatment options, and establishment of the disease, future concerns are raised about issues such as the selection of the right job, marriage, hereditary transfer and effects of the illness on future children, especially female children. The fear of this problem was evident among young girls who were ready for marriage. Concerns about giving birth to a child with the same problem or children’s view of their would-be sick mother also engrossed their minds. Given the inherited nature of the disease, they worried that the gene would carry the disease across generations, and could inflict the same serious problems on the receivers. Certain problems would affect their lives. They would blame their ancestors and complained that their paternal and maternal ancestors’ disease was transferred to them.
A successful marriage is associated with socialization and active participation in society. Due to the difficulty in socializing among people with psoriasis, a successful marriage is too difficult for the affected groups. One of the biggest challenges for people engaged with the symptoms from childhood is their constant concern over marriage. For women, this is a more serious problem, as they would prefer to stay single for the rest of their lives than to be frustrated. According to Ericsson et al.’s psychological theory, youth is the peak time for the tendency to be seen and actively participate in society. However, young patients with psoriasis often experience a strong sense of conflict between their desire to be seen and a sense of isolation due to illness. The hopelessness of these patients reveals itself in their future life. Women with psoriasis may also suffer from the life-long outcomes of the disease such as separation and divorce because of the legal defects that consider the given disease a case for fraud in marriage; this can ultimately kill the last glimmers of hope in the patients.
The future prospect of participant No. 6 for herself is depicted as follows:
“... I have not had any chance of marriage ... Of course, it was my own choice, but the illness had its part, as well. Anyway, I will inform the other party about my problem ... It can’t be kept under wraps; for sure, I’ll tell them myself” (A 34-year-old single woman).
The participant also commented on youth as the time for an ongoing conflict among dependence, interest, and secrecy:
“... I didn’t like to go to parties with my coworkers because I couldn’t eat any food or sweets offered. In fact, I didn’t like to go there because I wasn’t interested to explain my problem anymore. I couldn't control many things at parties ... Even some of my friends mistakenly considered it as a type of skin allergy ... I was stuck in a real quandary; despite my interest in staying in touch with them, I was always terrified that the real fact of my disease may be disclosed, so I tried to hide it ...”.
Talking on the same topic, participant No. 1 asserted that:
“There are so many ceremonies where some women are met for marriage. However, I had less time to be seen. I had to avoid these parties and hide. When I was alone, I was very upset without knowing who to blame for this disease or for my vague future with it ...”.
Talking about her forced coexistence with psoriasis, the same participant concluded that:
“... I have learned to get along with this disease for I’ve lived with it for several years ... Apparently, we are not going to get rid of it ...”.
Participant No. 7 described the future of the disease as follows:
“... But the concern I always had in my heart was fear of the future ... For example, if I had a chance for marriage, how could I discuss this with my partner?... What would he think of me? or how would his family handle this? ... All the worse, I am worried about the hereditary nature of the disease ... that is, this defective gene in my body made it possible for the disease to emerge; but now, I am mostly concerned about the children who are supposed to come to the world after me ... Why should they get infected or deserve such suffering like me? I can’t let them be stared at by people or be teased by their behavior ... I really don’t know what to say ...” (Long silence of the patient, …).
She continued:
“... I’d love to inform my would-be partner of my disease before marriage if someone should like to live with me. I don’t like to conceal anything because after a while everything would be discovered and nothing can be kept secret anymore. I also know that I wouldn’t be able to get on with the stress for secrecy in my life! I even go to the doctor right now because I want the spots to disappear before I get married or perhaps find a cure for the disease. As you know, it’s a huge defect and my frustration is much severe than before ...”.
Participant No. 2 also talked about psoriasis and her lifelong coexistence with it by saying:
“... I rarely go out of my house. Some people think I got cancer because I’ve lost my hair... they talk behind my back and it hurts a lot, even more than my illness ... Cancer is easier because you die and it’s over! But what should I do?! I have to live with this and burn until the end of my life with this misery ...”.
The same participant also shared one of her memories of having met a married woman who also suffered from psoriasis at a doctor’s office:
“... the lady I saw at the doctor’s office told me that she had even been under pressure from her husband’s family. They always gossiped about her and believed that perhaps her kids would be suffering from the same disease. She used to cry a lot. When I heard this, as I was single, I became concerned about my own future life that would be like hers ... Can one really have skin disease and honestly tell her suitor about it?! ... For sure, they won’t agree! Nowadays, appearance is very important to boys...”.
Participant No. 3 described her future with the disease:
“I mostly worry about the future of my marriage or my future children. Anyway, there is no other way than praying for me. I ask God not to give such a disease even to my enemies because no one can survive it! It’s too sad to see that my baby or any innocent child might inherit this annoying disease from me. I feel a pang of conscience; so I am very much afraid of and concerned about the future ... I believe only God can help me ...”.