Ten participants contributed to this study. The age range of the patients was 28 - 50 years, and their mean age was 34.81 years (
Table 1).
| ID | Age, y | Marital Status | Time of Having HIV/AIDS, y | Number of Children |
|---|
| 1 | 36 | Widow | 8 | 1 |
| 2 | 31 | Remarried | 5 | 1 |
| 3 | 28 | Remarried | 9 | 1 |
| 4 | 30 | Remarried | 8 | 1 |
| 5 | 50 | Widow | 8 | 5 |
| 6 | 42 | Widow | 9 | 2 |
| 7 | 31 | Widow | 6 | 0 |
| 8 | 43 | Widow | 4 | 2 |
| 9 | 36 | Married | Unknown | 2 |
| 10 | 28 | Married | 3 | Pregnant |
Data analysis yielded 147 meaning units, 25 concepts, 14 sub-themes, and 4 themes. Experience of stigma was very difficult for the all participants. Three of them were crying during FGDs (Focus Group Discussions), which was very deplorable. None except one person used the term HIV or AIDS. They just called it “this illness”, which could be due to a type of continued fear of the disease. Content analysis of the statements showed that stigma and discrimination were the main problems for these people, which had led to their marginalization. Indeed, the stigma of H/A is so severe that such people have to hide it in various situations. Except parents and partners, other people are not willing to accept them. However, what troubled the participants the most was the label of harlotry in the public. They were exposed to this charge because H/A is generally believed to be transmitted through underground sexual relations, though these people were infected by their husbands. This situation had led to severe psychological problems. Generally, four concepts could be extracted from the participants’ statements, including onomatophobia, social stigma, discrimination, and self-stigma.
4.1. Onomatophobia
All the participants experienced onomatophobia. The term H/A is equal to a psychosocial pressure on patients. Among those who participated in the study, just participant 7 used the term HIV+. Several uses of ‘this illness’ by the other participants showed that they were afraid of exposure to the term. This is often due to the social reactions to the term H/A, which is associated with illegitimate sexual relations. The participants believed that they were all infected by their husbands, but they were labeled with harlotry. They tried a low and hidden voice to say ‘I did not have any illegitimate sexual relations; I am a chaste woman’. They felt people were suspicious of them. However, it was just their families who accepted their innocence. Over time, this had caused a phobia in the subconscious minds of the participants about the name of the disease. Participant 8 said that she had gone to Lavan center secretly because if anyone knew she was there, he or she would think she was a dirty woman or a sex worker. The other participants had a similar experience. The following quotation is noteworthy:
“I die of fear when I hear the name of the disease. I sit at a corner and pray. In the hospital, I fear when a nurse mentions the disease and tells me I have it” (participant no.5).
The name of this disease creates stress for participants. They even suffered from hearing the name through the media.
“When the TV mentions its name I'm afraid, I say turn it off. Even when I come here to get medicine I'm crying like a rainstorm, I'm scared of its name” (participants no 6).
Although both AIDS and HIV terms induced bad psychological effects, AIDS was worse. For example, participant no.7 said:
“I hate the word “AIDS” very much, so I say everywhere HIV. Someone told me you’re having a very hard time. I better accept HIV than AIDS. I say to myself, the last stage is AIDS. I am self-deceived. Escape from this word. Why lie I miss this word”.
4.2. Social Stigma
The general attitude of social dishonor against the disease has improperly created an attitude of shame, scandal, and disgrace. All patients experience marginalization due to stereotypes against this disease. This leads to social insecurity, which may prevent HIV patients from disclosing their conditions to others and serve as a barrier to public approval. Also, people step away from these patients, specifically for the fear of probable transmissibility of the disease. In other words, because of the social threats of the disease, H/A-infected people are avoided. The participants believed that people of the society, even hospital staff, would take a distance from them once the disease is pronounced. Thus, apart from harlotry labeling, transmission of the disease seems to be a major problem as well. The following statement indicates how such diseased people are avoided by the society and even their relatives:
“After my relatives learned that I had AIDS, none of them associated with me. After they discovered that it is not transmitted easily, some of them resumed their relationships. However, some still do not come over to my home” (participant no.7).
Participant no.5 had a similar experience about her close relatives:
“All people have left me, even my daughter-in-law. No one looks at me except my sisters or sometimes my sons. I do not count on anyone except God”.
Statements of participant no.7 also showed that social stigma threatens her children.
“Why people disconnect with you when they know the problem? Someone understood my problem, she even avoided my children”.
Gender reinforces the social stigma. In other words, having HIV/AIDS was worse for these participants because they were female.
“It is really hard for a woman. When someone knows you have HIV they ask ‘did you have a husband’? I get very annoyed. Despite they know I got it from your husband, they look at me as an evil” (participant no.3).
4.3. Discrimination
Because of social stigma, women with H/A are deprived of social rights. There are manifest discriminations that lead to the isolation of these women. Also, the social stigma and the harlotry label cause them not to tend to have an active interaction in the society. They think that if their problem is disclosed, they are bypassed severely by the society. Inappropriate behavior towards these people, as a segregated class, is common. In this case, social stigma is a sufficient reason for violating the rights of these people. In the present study, the participants tried to escape social discriminations by hiding their diagnosed disease, specifically in health sectors. Seven participants had experienced discrimination in health sectors. Just Lavan center had accepted them, and it seems if the other four participants had gone to other health sectors they would have faced with discrimination. According to what they stated, they had the worst experience of discrimination by healthcare providers in clinics and hospitals:
“I went to a gynecology clinic. When the physician learned about my problem, she did not check me. She said, “you have AIDS” and rejected me despite the fact I had a letter of introduction from Lavan center” (participant no.7).
The most discrimination happened in the health sector because these people can hide their problem in other parts of the society. However, they were trained that they should inform their healthcare team about their disease. In addition, most of the time they referred to health sector because of their main problem (HIV/AIDS). Therefore, most of the discrimination was experienced in the health sector.
“Once I went to a clinic. When the doctor understood I have HIV, she pushed her chair back and said do not move. I was so annoyed” (participant no.1).
4.4. Self-Stigma
Due to the problems mentioned above and such problems as divorce, death of husband, being alone, and feeling of guilt, the women were faced with a problem called ‘self-stigma’. Five participants had experienced this stigma. This stigma is related to the relationship of affected people with themselves, their soul, their body, and their potentials, which leads to negative feelings toward themselves. These negative feelings include shame and whining, hopelessness, self-blame, self-deprivation, low self-esteem, depression, suicidal thoughts, marital refusal, and other related emotions.
Because the disease was transmitted through sexual relation with their husbands, they have bitter experiences regarding sexual intercourse. They have no interest in establishing relations or do not gain satisfaction in their sexual relationship. This is why they often refuse it. As for widows, they refuse to get married again. Some of them are affected by chronic depression and cannot wait for death, and some others start contemplating suicide. In the event of self-stigma, an afflicted woman’s main problem is her relationship with her family, specifically her children. As it was found in this study, such women are worried about the potential infection of their children. In other words, a type of compelling obsession dominates them. This leads to the limitation in their relationship with their children, which exacerbates their feeling of shame and guilt. This is a problematic situation that results in severe hopelessness. The following statement is quite suggestive of lack of hope:
“My children do not know about my problem. I do not hug them so that they might not take my disease. My son complains to my mother in that I don’t hug him and that I am obsessed. At eating time, I try hard not to leave any food in my dish or take care our food is not mixed up. My problem is that death does not come. I believe the sooner I die, the more comfortable I will be” (participant no.6).
These people were alone. They prayed sometimes as follows:
“Sometimes I ask God why I got caught up? What was my sin? Oh my God, what is this misery” (participant no. 8).
Disappointment was clear in the statements of some participants, specifically those who did not have anyone and lived alone. These people did not have any hope for their lives and future.
“I'm just alive, and I have no hope” (participant no.5).